Tuesday, December 06, 2005


Sometimes people really bother me. Heck even my family really bothers me. I can be fine and then all of a sudden WHAM! Out of nowhere I am hit. You know, when I think about it, most of the time it is my fault. I try to talk to someone about something. I don't think the topic is controversial but it always turns that way.
Now me, I am not a controversial person. I don't like to argue just to argue. But there are some people out there who are. And you know what? Sometimes they are not worth my time. I know this makes no sense, and I am just ranting. But sometimes it feels so good to get it out without reprocutions of actually talking to the party involved. Sigh ok that's it for now.

Oh wait. GO SHARKS!

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Lifes random thoughts

Ok I stole this from Dixie, put I have no idea how to highlight her name!

When is the best time to open presents?Oh I hate waiting! Sometimes if I beg my husband he lets me open one of Christmas eve. But I must say Christmas morning is the best. Even though I hate waiting.

Have you been naughty or nice this year?A little of both probably. I am only human right?

Real tree or imitation tree?Real. We have a tradition of cutting down a tree with my husbands family on my MILs bday. It is a lot of fun.

Favorite Christmas cartoon character?Charlie Brown all the way. I love him.

Did you ever write Santa a letter?I think I just told him what I wanted when I sat on his lap. I figured I would go straight to the man himself instead of relying on the postal service.

Buy any Christmas presents online?Yup, some ornaments.

Save the ribbons and paper or rip right through it?
Rip it.

Sharing Christmas with family this year?Yup, now which family that is the problem

Ever ride in a one horse open sleigh?Sadly no

Ever roast a chestnut on an open fire?Nope

Favorite Christmas pie?Not sure if I have ever had pie on Christmas, but if I did, it would be chocolate

Favorite Christmas movie?One Magic Christmas. I used to watch this with my mom every year.

Favorite Christmas song?I can't pick just one!

People on your Christmas list - more or less than ten?More than ten. How many more I am not sure.

Will you have a white Christmas this year?Nope. Not much snow in my part of California

Do you believe in Santa Claus?Doesn't everyone?

Who would you like to kiss under the mistletoe?My husband

Who gives the best gifts?Hmmm, I think I do!

Do you send Christmas cards?I try

What color best represents Christmas?Red and green.

Do you own any Christmas music?Yup. We have nice little collection.

How many Christmas parties will you attend this year?Maybe one or two

Does the postal worker get a gift this year?Nope I never have the same one, and sometimes they step on my flowers

Giving a present to a pet?Nah, my dog gets presents all the time. But I would like to get a pet as a present!

Your shopping: All done, halfway done, just started, not started yet?Just started

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Well Crap

Ok, so my Sharks? You know the ones whose game I was sooo happy to go to? Well, they are sucking. Plain and simple. My man Nabby, isn't making me happy. Now some of you are saying, "C'mon Tiff, it is only hockey". Well to you, I say &#^##(#&! No not really, but seriously! I didn't wait a whole year of negotiations to watch my team fail miserably!

The last game I went to was an awesome game. I will give them that. I got to see Ricci, my favorite player who was traded. They did a tribute to him, and he got an ovation. It was awesome! Ok then I also got to see Wayne Gretzky. Or "The Great One" and that was pretty cool. I also got to see a fight, and the game went into double overtime. Ok ok, so not a horrible game, but they still lost.

I was starting to think it was me. Since I have never been to a sports event where my team has won. But they are doing so horrible that it can't possibly be me.

Oh well, they will have a chance to redeem themselves tomorrow. Lets see if they can pull out a win. And just for the record, I still love the Sharks, even if they suck, and I am not jumping on any bandwagons. This girl will go down with her team!

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Shoes, Hockey and housecleaning

Seems like I always post about depressing stuff. Yeah, you know all five of my posts? LOL! So I am going to write about my boring Saturday. Well boring so far. So far I went to Mervyns. I desperately needed some shoes. I only own flip flops, I guess living in California I can get away with it. But I needed some tennis shoes. Is that what they are even called? I think so, well ok maybe I will be more specific, I needed shoes with laces that cover my toes. Ok that might make more sense. So anyways found some of the awful devices made to restrict my painted toes and cause them to sweat! Why would I do this to my toes? Well tonight I am going to my first hockey game of the season! GO SHARKS! And I really didn't want to step on sticky stuff, or have someone step on my poor defenseless toes. So in comes the shoes.

Ok back to the day. After the store went to Burger King and indulged on a huge burger that I didn't need but it was worth it. Then I came home and cleaned my house.

So that concludes my Saturday up to this point. Now tonight I am going to a hockey game. My favorite sport of all time. And I will hopefully see my favorite team actually win. I have been to there games before, heck I have been to many different sports games. But I have yet to see my team win. Any team I am routing for loses. So I am a little nervous about going tonight. Maybe I am bad luck. Hopefully I am not, since I would really like to see them win. Ok so that is it. Hopefully I will get back to updating this, since I do get bummed when my fellow bloggers stop blogging!

Wednesday, September 21, 2005


On Good Friday, April 13 2001 I had a miscarriage. The baby was supposed to be born on October 4 2001. I was supposed to be 12 weeks pregnant with my second child when I had some very mild spotting.

So I called my doc and went in assuming it was nothing. My MIL wanted to go with me, which was fine but told yahoo to keep working. I am crying as I write this, which is crazy, it was over 4 years ago. But I went into the apt and the doc couldn't find a heartbeat. SO we did an ultrasound still assuming everything was fine.

Well she was looking around and we saw the baby, but she excused herself and came back with another doctor. That is when they told me the baby had died. He (I just always assumed it was a him) had probably died about 2 weeks earlier. They took pics with the ultrasound machine and gave them to me. I still have them in a box and take them out every now and then.

I never did pass him, and had to have a D&C which only added to the pain.

I will never forget that feeling. I know it is nothing like losing a child who is already born. But the pain I felt and still fell was so strong. I talk about the baby often with yahoo like expressing he would be four in a couple weeks.

Not sure what possessed me to share this, other than the fact of his bday coming up. But if you got this far thanks for reading.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Mindless meme

Ok I am taking this one from Dixie Peach

7 Things I Plan To Do Before I Die

1. Become an excellent piano player
2. Become an excellent quilter
3. Travel to Paris
4. Meet my father
5. Own a Great Dane and name him Charleston Heston
6. Have something published
7. Get over my fear of the ocean

7 Things I Can Do

1. I can play the piano a little
2. I can quilt a little
3. I can pick the next big hit off a CD
4. I can make people smile
5. I can walk in spiked heels
6. I can multitask very well
7. Make a mean spaghetti sauce

7 Things I Cannot Do

1. Speak two languages
2. Snow ski
3. Knit
4. Go in the ocean
5. Kill a spider
6. Bungee jump
7. Confront people

7 Things That Attract Me To The Opposite Sex

1. Eyes
2. Hands
3. Sense of humor
4. Sensitivity
5. Voice
6. Good conversationalist
7. Clean shaven

7 Things I Say Most Often

1. Like
2. Really
3. I love you
4. Get out
5. Wow
6. Bummer
7. Alrighty then

7 Celebrities I Find Most Attractive

1. Orlando Bloom
2. Dave Navarro
3. Vince Vaughn
4. Justin Timberlake
5. Ian Somerhalder
I can't think of anyone else haha

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

In a funk

Right now I am in a huge funk. I have so many feelings inside I don't even know where to start. My sister-in-law had a beautiful baby boy this weekend. He is just perfect! I am so happy for them. But at the sometime I am a little sad. See I already have three awesome children. They are perfect to me. Sure they are hard sometimes, but I couldn't love them more. Yet a desire for another child whispers in my ear. I don't know if this is just a passing moment but I am dealing with it.

And then my in-laws. I just feel like I am letting them down on some level. We used to be really close especially my father-in-law. But lately we have just been drifting. It is probably the normal in-law relationship now, I am just not used to it.

Wow this is turning into a rant fest! Next thing on my list. I am starting to put on weight. I have put on 10 pounds. I don't know if this is because I work from home, and I can eat all day, or if is just the lack of exercise. I literally do none. I know I should, but I have no motivation! But my pants are getting tight, and hubby has started to say stuff. Nothing bad at all, but just little things. I know he means well. I really want to be trim and fit!

Well I just looked out my window and there is a squirrel staring at me! Life isn't all bad. In fact my favorite time of year is almost here. Autumn. Time for snuggling under blankets, sweaters, leaves turning, and the smell, just the smell of fall is enough to put me in a good mood!

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

WooHoo I have been Tagged!

I am so excited this is my first tag! Ok so I will do my best!

1. Total volume of music files on my computer?

Ok I have no idea how to figure this out, so let me ask hubby. Ok 15 GB, I have no idea what that means. hahaha

2. The last CD I bought was?


3. Song playing right now?

Nothing, just the lovely song of my kids fighting, lol (I think it is a broken record)!

Five songs I listen to a lot or that mean a lot to me (in no particular order)

A. Backstreet boys, Incomplete, Honestly I have no idea why.

B. Prince, Little Red Corvete, I just love Prince

C. Winds of Change, Scorpions, My 6 year old loves this song.

D. Guns and Roses, Don't Cry, It makes me feel better when I am sad.

E. Keane, Somewhere only We Know, It is a great song!

Which 5 people are you passing the baton to and why-

Um I don't know anyone besides Dixie and Barefoot!

Sunday, May 22, 2005

How do you deal?

How do you deal with your pain? When someone you love hurts you, how do you approach the situation? Do you cry by yourself? Do you get angry? Do you confront the person? I have a tendency to get angry. So angry that I can't see straight. I say things and do things that I am not proud of. But am I justified? If someone I trust hurts me, do I have the right to tear them apart? Should I be able to make them feel as bad as I feel? And if I do that, what am I accomplishing? At the time, I do everything in my power to try and make the person understand why I am hurt, and I want them to apologize and feel as crappy as I do. But thinking about it, am I just as bad as the person who hurt me? Would I be better if I cried alone and then approached the person who hurt me? Sure I would make more sense that way, and I wouldn't be so passionate, but would I be able to get my point across? Is getting my point across even that important? Who knows.......

Wednesday, May 18, 2005


I don't know about anyone else, but I am not a fan of cleaning. I do love a clean house though. But I do daycare, and I live in a very small house. And when I say small, I mean it. I have three small children and we live in a two bedroom 940 sq foot house. So literally five minutes after I am done cleaning, the house is a mess again. Now hubby hates this. And I can see why, I mean who wants to come home to a dirty house? So my suggestion? Move. Not him, but all of us. I would love to live in a three or four bedroom house. A house where the toys can actually have there own place. A house where my three children don't have to sleep on top of each other! Hubby is not to keen on the idea, but a wife can hope can't she?!