The interview

These are a few questions that
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has asked me in order to learn more about me.


1. How did you become a hockey fan? Is it a more recent passion or have you always followed the sport?

I have been a hockey fan since 1995 or so . There is just something great about the sport that I feel in love with. It is one of those great sports that I can watch on TV or in person, or listen to on the radio and still love it.

2. You became a mom at a relatively young age. Do you think it turned out to be an advantage for you or a disadvantage or in the long run did your age not make much of a difference?

I was 17 when I found out I was pregnant with Julia, and 18 when she was born. It was hard. I wasn't out of school yet, I wasn't married, and I was only a supervisor at a deli. I was so scared. But everything feel into place. Brian and I got married, we moved in together and lived happily ever after. OK maybe not so sweet and simple, but we did make it, and I don't regret a single minute of it. I don't know if age had much to do with it. I mean I did what had to be done.


3. I know you love all three of your kids but are there times when you feel closer to one or another child, perhaps due to a special circumstance at the time?

Each one of the kids has something special that brings them close. Julia was my first, and she is just like me. Same little attitude, yet very sensitive. Having her so young, made me grow up. She is also my hockey buddy. She is a huge fan, and I take her to every game that is on a weekend. She has her own jersey and everything.

Victoria was my planned baby. And also a miracle. I lost a baby before her, and then while I was pregnant with her I formed an antibody against her blood. I have O- blood, and for some reason, my blood cells think the babies blood is and infection, and tries to kill the blood cells. So making it through the pregnancy with her was difficult. She is my girly girly. Loves dress up, babies, all that stuff.

William was also a miracle baby. He was also a surprise. At 12 weeks I hemorrhaged for 3 days. The doctors did an ultrasound on the first day of hemorrhaging and informed me my body was trying to abort him, and they didn't think I would make it past the weekend. Well Monday morning he was still alive and kicking. Then I got placenta previa, which thankfully corrected itself before he was born. But I had to have an emergency c-section anyways. He is my little man. So sweet, so loving and yet all boy. He is so attached to me at this age, that I just feel so special.

4. California's your home but if you were going to move to another state, which would you prefer to move to? And what foreign country would you want to move to if you had to?

I haven't really spent time in to many states so that is a tough choice. But where ever I moved I
would have to live close to the ocean with beautiful beaches. And foreign country? France. My ancestors were from there and I would love to learn about their hometown and culture.


5. You've got a talent for quilting. Is there a part of quilt making that you like best or feel is your strongest talent? What part do you like least?

I love making quilts, but I am fairly new at it, so I don't know a lot of different types. I do love picking patterns and challenging myself. I love things that are different. I try to put a spin on things, I'm don't really want to see the same kind of quilt I just made at someones house. The part I like the least is the cutting. You have to be very precise and sometimes cutting all the fabric can take hours, and that is just so time consuming!

Tired

Do you ever get tired of doing it all? And I mean ALL! I do all the housework, bills, cooking....you name it. So you can imagine my frustration when I have to be the one to put the "wooing" back into a relationship. Why is it that men totally forget how to do this? They get married, and then figure they can sit around on there ass, flirt with anyone else, but their wife? Why would I flirt with her?

Pissed me right off.

Thats all.

Lifes random thoughts

Lifes random thoughts

I am stealing this idea from my friend Poppy, she is so fun to read and I recommend you take a look.

Things that make me happy
My children learning from and enjoying shows on Animal planet

Things that make me sad
Losing Steve Irwin, whom I consider a hero

Things that make me happy
Moving into a new huge house with room for my family

Things that make me sad
Not having enough time to decorate it yet

Things that make me happy
Quiting soda for 2 weeks!

Things that make me sad
Falling off the soda wagon, and getting a sore from the soda.

Things that make me happy
Deciding to make homemade jams, jellies, and salsa for the holidays

Things that make me sad
Not yet finding time to attempt let alone perfect the perfect jams, jellies, and salsas.

Things that make me happy
Watching my daughter play with the blocks I made for her quilt

Things that make me sad
Having a year, and still not being done with the damn quilt

Finally things that make me happy
Knowing my family loves me despite my downfalls.

Have a good day!

Steve Irwin

R.I.P Crocodile Hunter




My family and I will miss you greatly.

Kickboxing

Ok tonight. 6:40pm. Where will I be? Hopefully at the gym doing a kickboxing class! My sister is getting married in 3 months and I am her maid of honor. And I have put on a few pounds. So off to kickboxing I will go. Sounds easy right? And it really is. Get in the car, drive, walk to class, do kickboxing. Done.

Not so fast. Can someone please tell my why classrooms at the gym are like fishbowls? I mean seriously! Do you really wanna watch people do classes, being totally sweaty, and if you are watching me, trying to follow the steps without falling down?

It isn't fun to watch. And yet people do! They stand at the glass and they look. Just like you are at the aquarium. "Oh look at that fish in the purple! How graceful" "Whoops look at the blue fish he just ran into another fish" C'mon people there must be something better to do than stand there and give people complexes!

This is why I have a hard time going to kickboxing. I hate to be watched. HATE IT. And maybe you aren't looking at me. But If you are standing at the glass looking in the room I feel like you are starring at me.

So if you have any compassion. The next time you are at the gym. And you happen across one of these fishbowls. With people inside trying desperately to keep up. Just walk away. I would appreciate it!

It finally happened

My husband and I went to a hockey game on Monday night with a dear friend of my husbands . Now you all know I am a huge hockey fan. Not just any hockey team though. My boys, The San Jose Sharks. They hold the key to my heart!

Ok so we get to the game, have good seats, enjoying the game. They are actually winning. Then they are losing. THats ok though, I am at the game. And I refuse to believe I am bad luck, even though I have never been to a winning game.

Ok so second period ends and we are down by 3. This is starting to suck a little. But my boys play their best in the third period. So I am not to worried.

So my hubby and I go to the bathroom, our friend goes to talk to some of his other friends who happend to be at the game also.

Well we come back from the bathroom. Wheres Andy? Not sure, so we sit and wait.

And the third period is about to start. Then comes Andy. "COme on guys" he says. So we follow. And guess where he is taking us?

C'mon guess? Okay give up?

He took us to sit with his friends, who have season tickets right behind the sharks' bench. Three rows back. We can smell the sweat, feel the ice. It was amazing.

And I start to have an anxiety attack. I am not kidding. I can't breath, my heart was beating out of my chest, I am as red as red gets, and my boys haven't even come out of the locker room!

Then it happens. They walk out. The are 10 feet away from me. My breathing gets worse, my face gets redder. I was so excited, my knees were actually numb.

Then one looked at me. We made eye contact. I am not kidding. It was one of my favorite players. It was really brief, and it wasn't an "I love you" look. But it was amazing.

Then they start to score. They score twice in 5 minutes! I am totally pumped, yelling, clapping, everything.

Well, it comes down to the final minutes, and they lose. But it was the greatest game ever! I will never be able to beat that. Even if I go to a winning game!

Ok my story was good, but this guy, Andy, his rendition is much better. So enjoy! Andrew's Story

Meme

Ok I stole this from Barefoot.


1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what did you think?
My hair actually looks good today.

2. How much cash do you have on you?
$20.00

3. What's a word that rhymes with 'TEST'?
Best

4. Favorite planet?
Earth

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
The doctors

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
The good life by weezer

7. What shirt are you wearing?
A blue t-shirt with swirls and a girl on it

8. Do you 'label' yourself?
Nope

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing now.
Adidas.

10. Bright or Dark Room?
Bright

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
Barefoots my girl!

12. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping

13. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
Don't have one.

14. Where is your nearest 7-11?
About 2 miles

15. What's a saying(s) that you say a lot?
No way!

16.Who told you they loved you last?
Brian

17. Last furry thing you touched?
My jacket lol!

18. How many days of school did you miss this week?
I am not in school

19. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
Two

20. Favorite age you have been so far?
Hmmm 20 rocked

21. Your worst enemy?
I don't think I have one

22. What is your current desktop picture?
A big great white with his mouth open. Love sharks

23. What was the last thing you said to someone?
Stop that, in refrence to my kids

24. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you choose?
Money, I am afraid of heights

25. Do you like someone?
Of course

26. The last song you listened to?
Amber by 311

27. Carmen Electra or Pam Anderson?
Carmen, no contest.

Emotions

Today I have been on a rollercoaster of emotions. Someone in my life is royally pissing me off. They don't mean to. That is just who they are, but it totally sucks! I am starting to dislike them. Which isn't good. I don't dislike anyone. I just get tired of being the only one in a friendship. My shoulders are tired. I can't handle all the weight. But I have no idea how to let go. I isn't really an option not to be friends with them. But I wish there was. You know when you give and give, and that person willingly takes, but doesn't give in return? Or thinks a simple "how was your day" is doing their part? Well that is what it is. And you know what? That is fine. Why should I try to make this person like me? Why should I be the only one consumed by this problem? Not anymore. Today I take a stand. I can be cordial. I can be friendly. But going out of my way? Done. Thanks for listening.

My birthday

Your Birthdate: September 24

You understand people well and are a natural born therapist. A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around. You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you. You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people. Your strength: Your devotion Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness Your power color: Lilac Your power symbol: Heart Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Everyday

life's random thoughts

Ok so almost everyday I come here. To my blog and I just sit and stare at the screen. I have no idea what to put. I read other peoples blog, like DixiePeach, I have no idea how to highlight her name. And she has some interesting stuff to write. Whether it is about her hubby, the streets of Germany, or her sock monkey Lottie, I am usually riveted. Or there is BareFoot, she writes about her nephew, her house, her dogs, and I love reading it.

I don't want to talk about sad stuff. Even though at the moment I am feeling pain for an amazing person who has gone through so much heartache this past year, that I don't know how she continues on.

I could talk about my dogs. My American bulldog , Sugar, had surgery yesterday for a growth on her paw. She is fine now, and it was all pretty uneventful. My Boston terrier, Elvis, is growing so fast! But that is about it. No new tricks, or funny stories.

I could write about hockey. My boys (The Sharks) play tonight. They are working there way to getting to the playoffs. But the games hasn't happened yet, so I can't say much other than I hope the win.

My oldest daughter Julias birthday party is tonight. We are going to Chuck E Cheese. So I watch kids all day, and then I get to watch them more tonight. But Julia begged me to go. And what can I say? I caved!

My husband is working, which is awesome. He just bought a new radio for his truck. And I was going to buy it for him for Valentines day. So now what do I get him? Well for sure the silly boxers that I get him every Valentines.

So that's it. My random thoughts for the day. I hope you enjoyed it. I will try to get more exciting I promise!

Sometimes

Sometimes people really bother me. Heck even my family really bothers me. I can be fine and then all of a sudden WHAM! Out of nowhere I am hit. You know, when I think about it, most of the time it is my fault. I try to talk to someone about something. I don't think the topic is controversial but it always turns that way.
Now me, I am not a controversial person. I don't like to argue just to argue. But there are some people out there who are. And you know what? Sometimes they are not worth my time. I know this makes no sense, and I am just ranting. But sometimes it feels so good to get it out without reprocutions of actually talking to the party involved. Sigh ok that's it for now.

Oh wait. GO SHARKS!

Lifes random thoughts

Ok I stole this from Dixie, put I have no idea how to highlight her name!


When is the best time to open presents?Oh I hate waiting! Sometimes if I beg my husband he lets me open one of Christmas eve. But I must say Christmas morning is the best. Even though I hate waiting.

Have you been naughty or nice this year?A little of both probably. I am only human right?

Real tree or imitation tree?Real. We have a tradition of cutting down a tree with my husbands family on my MILs bday. It is a lot of fun.

Favorite Christmas cartoon character?Charlie Brown all the way. I love him.

Did you ever write Santa a letter?I think I just told him what I wanted when I sat on his lap. I figured I would go straight to the man himself instead of relying on the postal service.

Buy any Christmas presents online?Yup, some ornaments.

Save the ribbons and paper or rip right through it?
Rip it.

Sharing Christmas with family this year?Yup, now which family that is the problem

Ever ride in a one horse open sleigh?Sadly no

Ever roast a chestnut on an open fire?Nope

Favorite Christmas pie?Not sure if I have ever had pie on Christmas, but if I did, it would be chocolate

Favorite Christmas movie?One Magic Christmas. I used to watch this with my mom every year.

Favorite Christmas song?I can't pick just one!

People on your Christmas list - more or less than ten?More than ten. How many more I am not sure.

Will you have a white Christmas this year?Nope. Not much snow in my part of California

Do you believe in Santa Claus?Doesn't everyone?

Who would you like to kiss under the mistletoe?My husband

Who gives the best gifts?Hmmm, I think I do!

Do you send Christmas cards?I try

What color best represents Christmas?Red and green.

Do you own any Christmas music?Yup. We have nice little collection.

How many Christmas parties will you attend this year?Maybe one or two

Does the postal worker get a gift this year?Nope I never have the same one, and sometimes they step on my flowers

Giving a present to a pet?Nah, my dog gets presents all the time. But I would like to get a pet as a present!

Your shopping: All done, halfway done, just started, not started yet?Just started

Well Crap

Ok, so my Sharks? You know the ones whose game I was sooo happy to go to? Well, they are sucking. Plain and simple. My man Nabby, isn't making me happy. Now some of you are saying, "C'mon Tiff, it is only hockey". Well to you, I say &#^##(#&! No not really, but seriously! I didn't wait a whole year of negotiations to watch my team fail miserably!

The last game I went to was an awesome game. I will give them that. I got to see Ricci, my favorite player who was traded. They did a tribute to him, and he got an ovation. It was awesome! Ok then I also got to see Wayne Gretzky. Or "The Great One" and that was pretty cool. I also got to see a fight, and the game went into double overtime. Ok ok, so not a horrible game, but they still lost.

I was starting to think it was me. Since I have never been to a sports event where my team has won. But they are doing so horrible that it can't possibly be me.

Oh well, they will have a chance to redeem themselves tomorrow. Lets see if they can pull out a win. And just for the record, I still love the Sharks, even if they suck, and I am not jumping on any bandwagons. This girl will go down with her team!

Shoes, Hockey and housecleaning

Seems like I always post about depressing stuff. Yeah, you know all five of my posts? LOL! So I am going to write about my boring Saturday. Well boring so far. So far I went to Mervyns. I desperately needed some shoes. I only own flip flops, I guess living in California I can get away with it. But I needed some tennis shoes. Is that what they are even called? I think so, well ok maybe I will be more specific, I needed shoes with laces that cover my toes. Ok that might make more sense. So anyways found some of the awful devices made to restrict my painted toes and cause them to sweat! Why would I do this to my toes? Well tonight I am going to my first hockey game of the season! GO SHARKS! And I really didn't want to step on sticky stuff, or have someone step on my poor defenseless toes. So in comes the shoes.

Ok back to the day. After the store went to Burger King and indulged on a huge burger that I didn't need but it was worth it. Then I came home and cleaned my house.

So that concludes my Saturday up to this point. Now tonight I am going to a hockey game. My favorite sport of all time. And I will hopefully see my favorite team actually win. I have been to there games before, heck I have been to many different sports games. But I have yet to see my team win. Any team I am routing for loses. So I am a little nervous about going tonight. Maybe I am bad luck. Hopefully I am not, since I would really like to see them win. Ok so that is it. Hopefully I will get back to updating this, since I do get bummed when my fellow bloggers stop blogging!

Memories

On Good Friday, April 13 2001 I had a miscarriage. The baby was supposed to be born on October 4 2001. I was supposed to be 12 weeks pregnant with my second child when I had some very mild spotting.

So I called my doc and went in assuming it was nothing. My MIL wanted to go with me, which was fine but told yahoo to keep working. I am crying as I write this, which is crazy, it was over 4 years ago. But I went into the apt and the doc couldn't find a heartbeat. SO we did an ultrasound still assuming everything was fine.

Well she was looking around and we saw the baby, but she excused herself and came back with another doctor. That is when they told me the baby had died. He (I just always assumed it was a him) had probably died about 2 weeks earlier. They took pics with the ultrasound machine and gave them to me. I still have them in a box and take them out every now and then.

I never did pass him, and had to have a D&C which only added to the pain.

I will never forget that feeling. I know it is nothing like losing a child who is already born. But the pain I felt and still fell was so strong. I talk about the baby often with yahoo like expressing he would be four in a couple weeks.

Not sure what possessed me to share this, other than the fact of his bday coming up. But if you got this far thanks for reading.

Mindless meme

Ok I am taking this one from Dixie Peach


7 Things I Plan To Do Before I Die

1. Become an excellent piano player
2. Become an excellent quilter
3. Travel to Paris
4. Meet my father
5. Own a Great Dane and name him Charleston Heston
6. Have something published
7. Get over my fear of the ocean


7 Things I Can Do

1. I can play the piano a little
2. I can quilt a little
3. I can pick the next big hit off a CD
4. I can make people smile
5. I can walk in spiked heels
6. I can multitask very well
7. Make a mean spaghetti sauce


7 Things I Cannot Do

1. Speak two languages
2. Snow ski
3. Knit
4. Go in the ocean
5. Kill a spider
6. Bungee jump
7. Confront people

7 Things That Attract Me To The Opposite Sex

1. Eyes
2. Hands
3. Sense of humor
4. Sensitivity
5. Voice
6. Good conversationalist
7. Clean shaven

7 Things I Say Most Often

1. Like
2. Really
3. I love you
4. Get out
5. Wow
6. Bummer
7. Alrighty then

7 Celebrities I Find Most Attractive

1. Orlando Bloom
2. Dave Navarro
3. Vince Vaughn
4. Justin Timberlake
5. Ian Somerhalder
I can't think of anyone else haha

In a funk

Right now I am in a huge funk. I have so many feelings inside I don't even know where to start. My sister-in-law had a beautiful baby boy this weekend. He is just perfect! I am so happy for them. But at the sometime I am a little sad. See I already have three awesome children. They are perfect to me. Sure they are hard sometimes, but I couldn't love them more. Yet a desire for another child whispers in my ear. I don't know if this is just a passing moment but I am dealing with it.

And then my in-laws. I just feel like I am letting them down on some level. We used to be really close especially my father-in-law. But lately we have just been drifting. It is probably the normal in-law relationship now, I am just not used to it.

Wow this is turning into a rant fest! Next thing on my list. I am starting to put on weight. I have put on 10 pounds. I don't know if this is because I work from home, and I can eat all day, or if is just the lack of exercise. I literally do none. I know I should, but I have no motivation! But my pants are getting tight, and hubby has started to say stuff. Nothing bad at all, but just little things. I know he means well. I really want to be trim and fit!

Well I just looked out my window and there is a squirrel staring at me! Life isn't all bad. In fact my favorite time of year is almost here. Autumn. Time for snuggling under blankets, sweaters, leaves turning, and the smell, just the smell of fall is enough to put me in a good mood!

WooHoo I have been Tagged!

I am so excited this is my first tag! Ok so I will do my best!

1. Total volume of music files on my computer?

Ok I have no idea how to figure this out, so let me ask hubby. Ok 15 GB, I have no idea what that means. hahaha

2. The last CD I bought was?

Keane


3. Song playing right now?

Nothing, just the lovely song of my kids fighting, lol (I think it is a broken record)!

Five songs I listen to a lot or that mean a lot to me (in no particular order)

A. Backstreet boys, Incomplete, Honestly I have no idea why.

B. Prince, Little Red Corvete, I just love Prince

C. Winds of Change, Scorpions, My 6 year old loves this song.

D. Guns and Roses, Don't Cry, It makes me feel better when I am sad.

E. Keane, Somewhere only We Know, It is a great song!

Which 5 people are you passing the baton to and why-

Um I don't know anyone besides Dixie and Barefoot!

How do you deal?

How do you deal with your pain? When someone you love hurts you, how do you approach the situation? Do you cry by yourself? Do you get angry? Do you confront the person? I have a tendency to get angry. So angry that I can't see straight. I say things and do things that I am not proud of. But am I justified? If someone I trust hurts me, do I have the right to tear them apart? Should I be able to make them feel as bad as I feel? And if I do that, what am I accomplishing? At the time, I do everything in my power to try and make the person understand why I am hurt, and I want them to apologize and feel as crappy as I do. But thinking about it, am I just as bad as the person who hurt me? Would I be better if I cried alone and then approached the person who hurt me? Sure I would make more sense that way, and I wouldn't be so passionate, but would I be able to get my point across? Is getting my point across even that important? Who knows.......

Cleaning

I don't know about anyone else, but I am not a fan of cleaning. I do love a clean house though. But I do daycare, and I live in a very small house. And when I say small, I mean it. I have three small children and we live in a two bedroom 940 sq foot house. So literally five minutes after I am done cleaning, the house is a mess again. Now hubby hates this. And I can see why, I mean who wants to come home to a dirty house? So my suggestion? Move. Not him, but all of us. I would love to live in a three or four bedroom house. A house where the toys can actually have there own place. A house where my three children don't have to sleep on top of each other! Hubby is not to keen on the idea, but a wife can hope can't she?!